White Wolf and the Ash Princess will be turning ONE in November. I can’t believe how much has changed since then…how much I have changed since then. I have learned to do so many new things (YES! Old dogs can learn new tricks! Haha!). I have had a crash course this past year on what it is takes to be an Indie author: marketing, networking, graphic design, etc. I learned these authorly things by doing something I didn’t think I would ever get over the fear of doing. I had to reach out. I had to reach out and ask questions– and often times… *gulp*… this meant asking questions to BRAND NEW people.
For those who know me, this is quite the big deal!
One of the neatest things about being an Indie author is the people you come across…the network of writers, authors and readers that become your support system, your cheerleaders and friends. I’m not quite sure when I met Rebekah. It feels as if we have always known each other. I do remember at the beginning of our friendship she had a lot of questions about releasing her novella– just the same as I did. We have become fast friends, and through Rebekah I have I found a kindred spirit. She is a leader with a nurturing spirit and she has a heart for service. This month, my new friend released her novel, Aveza of the Ercanhelm, and I couldn’t be more proud. Her writing voice is beautiful, her world is vivid, and her characters are memorable–but those aren’t the reasons why I have the warm fuzzies. Rebekah desires to teach, guide and inspire girls with her writing. Her goal is the same as mine: to direct the hurting to the One who offers hope and healing. I feel blessed to have gotten to know Rebekah. I’m sure you will, too, when you read her reason for writing.
Why Do I Write?
“Why does one begin to write? Because she feels misunderstood, I guess. Because it never comes out clearly enough when she tries to speak. Because she wants to rephrase the world, to take it in and give it back again differently, so that everything is used and nothing is lost. Because it’s something to do to pass the time until she is old enough to experience the things she writes about.” – Nicole Krauss
I don’t know who this Nicole Krauss person is, but I empathize very much with her reasoning.
I started writing back when I felt misunderstood, when the words coming from my mouth seemed a different language than the words I wrote. The words I wrote sang, danced, and leaped on the page. The words in my mouth? They stuttered and stammered like an elephant on a trampoline.
For a long time, I couldn’t answer the question “Why do you write?”
I didn’t have a reason to write—it just happened when I was awake, and often when I was half-asleep. Stories and ideas haunted my mind at all hours.
They had Christian themes. Could it be counted as a ministry?
They filled a longing inside of me to express myself in ways that others could actually understand. Did this make my writing personal release?
They helped me experience things I could only dream of. Did this make my writing wish-fulfillment?
These last months, as I worked on editing Aveza of the Ercanhelm, God took a single line of dialogue out of one chapter and slammed it over my head. I could swear the words jumped out of the page, highlighted in a myriad of colors.
In that one moment, I discovered why I write at all.
This is what the dialogue said:
“Being around you is training in itself.” Therese nudges me with her shoulder. “For all your mistakes, you are an excellent example. You are strong, wise, brave…”
Only on the outside, I mutter to myself. Once again, I ask myself- if she saw within me, would she say the same?
My girls—my protagonists—are all teenagers or young adults. They fight against what is expected of them, and come to find a greater knowledge of Him that made them in the first place and leads them forward.
As I started writing those first stories, years ago, I think I sought role models for myself. I looked for women I could look up to within the pages of fiction, and I found them.
These days, television and movies throw so many “role models” at teenage girls, but not good role models. We’re taught to look up to people like Beyonce or Kirsten Stewart—beautiful faces on the screen—but what happens off the stage and off the screen?
Now, don’t get me wrong. You will not find a perfect Christian woman in any of my books. Maeve from When Your Melody Fades is a drunkard and criminal on the run (sh, don’t tell anyone). Aveza from Aveza of the Ercanhelm is a chronic liar and a murderer.
I can hear your thoughts already: “What do you mean, your protagonists are role models? I don’t aspire to be/want my daughter to be a drunkard/criminal/murderer.”
Let me ask you this: have you ever met a perfect Christian?
We all rise from dark places in our lives, with the help of Christ as our savior. We have all sinned. There is no “little white sin” to God, and in His eyes, we are no better than Maeve or Aveza.
These two girls come to see the truth about God, the hard way.
Now, as Aveza of the Ercanhelm prepares for its launch, feel free to stop by. I’ll provide links to the Facebook party, to my blog, to other places where you’ll hear about the book.
But don’t come in expecting to feel good about yourself and your Christian life. Don’t open my book expecting warm and fuzzy feelings about being a Christian. The Christian life isn’t always easy, as you will see in Aveza of the Ercanhelm. It involves death, within ourselves, of our dreams, our hopes, our plans for the future. It may involve the death of our friendships, of our family relationships.
Don’t come into Aveza of the Ercanhelm for a good story.
Come, for the truth.
Aveza of the Ercanhelm is NOW available for puchase on Amazon in eBook and paperback.